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well, uh. hello (: urgh okay. main point. this. shall be the top top post.
livejournal's a little confusing. no idea where to put music, maybe i should get back to blogger.. hahas jk (:
or else later gotta change change again, alittle tiring. lazy! XD
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想到我讓深愛的你人海孤獨旅行
我會恨自己 如此狠心
it's funny how she's absent alot more often than me and she says that if I continue having the feeling of not wanting to go to class, I wont make it for my o levels. like seriously(?) even if I didn't feel like going to class, I still went in the end. and fuck. who's absent and much more of a slacker than me? her right? than she say I wont make it for my o levels if I continue things this way. Look. I'm only absent when I'm not feeling right. and what about her? always "headache". Like seriously lahh. Look at herself in the mirror first can? FUCK.
oh yes, almost forgotten. Since tomorrow's a holiday, I'm considering of going to CD-Rama and seeing if I can pre-oreder Fahrenheit's fourth album! YAY! :D
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想到我讓深愛的你人海孤獨旅行
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alex said that Justin Bieber's gay! D:
WHY! Alex , WHY!!!!! DDD:
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Cousins are over, didn't have much for breakfast. some peanut thingy and uh. Durian. (?) yes. Kinda weird. but well yeah. Yesterday, met up with childhood friends and went to mindcafe and than we had dinner and ice cream. we had dinner at "with a pinch of salt" if you know where that is. if you don't it's at TG Pagar how ever you spell it. it's been on tv before plenty of times maybe. it was on the what, seven o'clock show. (?) yeah. it's not bad. quite nice :D hmm, so the ice cream was just about across the street. it's not bad, plus there's a cute boy who works there and it's 5.00$ an hour and 6.50$ on public holidays. it's worth a consider. but to me it's a little far. I wont go to this extend for just ONE boy. so yeah.
so you know, I have this gameboy colour right? had it since like, when I was seven or something. my dad brought it home and gave it to me and alicia. mine was greenish blue and alicia's was yellow. so it's like about a decade ago. yeah it would have been in a better condition but my cousins came and put it to such a tragic state that it couldn't be played with. I mean yeah I can definately get a new one but for memories sake.. well yeah. I remembered the first time I played was pokemon. I have no idea where the game came from. perhaps my dad brought it. but yeah. it was the first game I pretty much ever played with. why am I suddenly talking about this? because I came over a photo of gameboy coor on tumblr. D: and Ikinda miss playing it D: I remember how my grandma used to like playing teris in my gameboy whenever she comes over to stay or when I go to M'sia. but she barely even come now. she comes alot more often when I was a kid. D: yeahyeah I know, I'm not very close with my grandma but shut it cos I still love her okay! even though whenever I see her I'm kinda like the quiet one and barely even talk to her. but well yeah.
sorry about the past posts I was just so damndamn upset. but it's okay lahh I guess. It's his loss anyways right? cos hmm, he kinda miss out on talking to such an awesome person right? okay not really lah but yeah. he better not come back saying he's sorry. Not forgiven. but well yeah. I hope he dies okay. but heck, he's bullshit.
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我冰冷身體 擁抱不了你
想到我讓深愛的你人海孤獨旅行
我會恨自己 如此狠心
who needs a man, I just need Arron Yan.
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urgh. Fuck. I'm missing Rozaini, Guo Rui, Tina, and Johnny. D; I missed laughing in class. They all stare at me as if I'm weird. Everytime I think about the time that Jack was talking some sick stuff in class and Rozaini was like, eeee you pervert ah? I'd laugh like an idiot, and now it's like, those days are so gone D: man, I hate this.
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想到我讓深愛的你人海孤獨旅行
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so you see, I'm having a huge problem, he's testing my patience. He's looking for he's "right one" or something, it's not like I still like him. I'm kinda hungry now, be careful. so you see, he wanted to meet some of my friends, girls of course. cute ones especially. I'm not gonna do that, like duh. that's kind dangerous. I'd be digging my own grave, wouldn't I?
Yesterday was average, today's below average. I'm feeling a whole big bang of upset-ness. and I don't like this. I feel so alone, and all this shit.
I hate you, you liar.
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I still have tuition later at 7:00 D: I hate the timing cos, it'll end at 8:30, and sometimes there's this disney movie that I might wanna watch. Class was so funny today, everyone seemed to laugh alot. Johnny was like so funny and everything. anyways, I'm looking forward to tomorrow, cos it's friday. and well, hmm. what am I doing tomorrow? oh yes, I'm meeting Jamie to eat ice. the weather has been oh, so hot. these days. this morning I woke up, and thought it'd rain. but no, not a single drop from the sky. but well yeah. ohoh, Theo has left France about maybe over 10 hours ago. hmm, well yeah anyways. I've been tumblring alot. Kinda addictive. Very addictive. Well, hmm. yeah. I am starving. What should I wear tomorrow? I hope that class tomorrow will be as laughy as it is today. because laughing is healthy.
You know, there was this guy I was just thinking about today, I mean every day, moring and afternoon, I'd take bus 156 and it'd always pass by a turn in to his school. And I'd wish that one day I'll see him or something because it's been ages since I last saw him. It's nice to have him around when I work cos he always make me laugh. why yes, I met him thru work. yeah so yeah, today I was just looking out of the bus window, and thinking if i'd see him today. when I was reaching my stop, I saw someone that look like him, and I just thought like. oh gawd. at first, I thought it was maybe because I was thinking about him too much so you know. yeah, but when I got off the bus, it really was him. so there was this single spotlight, blablabla, and I could only see him. but yeah whatever. we're so far apart now that we dont talk at all, maybe because we hadn't met each other for weeks and we dont text. but yeah whatever.
I hope you die. I know I should be more careful with how I talk for this one month. but yeah, whatever. my english is getting way too bad. you wanna apologize? not on fb. well yeah, you're still acting like a coward. you always run away from your problems, maybe somewhere along the way I became one. so you ran away from me. well, yeah, that's good to hear. cos I'm better off this way. it's like I suddenly feel like you know, I dont need you. cos why do I? but yeah whatever.
so after about almost half an hour later, my tuition teacher texted my mom saying she wont be able to make it. yay! :DD you like to listen to kidnap my heart? cos I think it's awesome :DD
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我冰冷身體 擁抱不了你
想到我讓深愛的你人海孤獨旅行
我會恨自己 如此狠心
went to this party with a guy friend, while we were queuing for food, he told me he’ll be right back. So then I decided to sit at the steps to wait for him, after what seems like forever, I walked around to look for him. As I passed by a table, I turned to look. And saw Edward staring back at him, I was in a bad mood and I stared at him and said ” hey I know you’re hot, stop acting like you own the world. ” and than I left. Than, I went to sit at the steps again, and decided to call my friend. Than only he told me that he was on his way home. and why yes, I was very upset. So I went back to the table where Edward was eating and I asked if he was free to talk. He looked at me and walked with me to the beach. Than I told him I was upset cos the friend I brought to the party just left like this. He just told me he’ll be back and he went home. Edward was quiet the whole time and stayed with me till I stopped crying. When I’ve finished crying, and I’m happy again, we walked back to the party and I went to find my other friends to talk to. Than, when it was dark out, I saw a few people having small attached light bulbs on their bodies which you can stick on your arms and legs, than I said ” I want that.” and saw another friend giving it to other people. I thought that I wont be able to get one so I didn’t went to get. So when I went to get a drink, Edward passed me a whole bunch of the small little light bulb stick on(s), I stared at him, shocked. Than he said, “You wanted them right? I got it for you.” than he turned away. I looked at him, smiled, and ran off. I decided I’d probably go to the toilet to try if it looks nice on me, so after I went to the toilet, just as I was leaving, a man grabbed me. I told him that if he wouldn’t let me go, I’d get my big brother (I don’t have a big brother, I was thinking of Edward when I said that though) to come get him and punch him in the face. Than suddenly, it seemed to have hit me that the man might go and find Edward, so I pushed him away and went to look for Edward. I ran out to find Edward playing soccer by the field.
—-THE END.—-
Kinda drama huh! :DD WHAT DREAMS. While I think it pretty much shows that Edward’s still kinda like a nice guy. ohgosh, so nice that even when he’s in my dreams, he’s still so real and nice. :D but I doubt he’d ever like me back though. He stopped being nice to me when he heard that I like him. D: he has always been very nice to me. Like one day, I was crying by the doorsteps of my class during break after being scolded by a teacher, Edward walked pass and saw me crying and asked, ” eh, angel, what happen? who bully you? tell me, I go find that person.” my friend said that it was the teacher and he said: ” ah, her ah, eh sorry ah, cannot lahh. ” Really, Edward. Is one of the sweetest, nicest guy I’ve ever met. I doubt I’d be able to find another one like him.
hmm, I swear that I had no intentions of blogging about him today, but last night I dreamt about him. so, yeah. I think he hates me. but whatonearth can I do to make him treat me like everyone else? I think he'd freak out inside when he sees me. D:
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我冰冷身體 擁抱不了你
想到我讓深愛的你人海孤獨旅行
我會恨自己 如此狠心
OH.MY. Thanks for all the birthday wishes! Thanks for putting happy birthday instead of happy 17th birthday, really. putting the age will freak me out, alot. I get damn paranoid. :DD
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